Deep Thoughts

Have you ever taken time to ponder about why things happened the way they did? I know I have. I have often thought back to events in my life and wondered what their purpose was. I am the kind of person that doesn't think that things just happen. They happen for a reason. Most of the time the reason isn't apparent when the event happens. Sometimes the reason never really comes to light. But there is a reason. I have been looking back at things lately and I have wondered what events in the past have gotten me to where I am today. What things have I done to influence my progression. And the biggest thing I have been thinking about lately is why am I in the position I am in and why do things seem to suck so badly right now. It is one thing after another and the rough times just don't seem to be letting up. Are these hard times because of something that I did in the past? Are they because of a bad choice I made years ago? Sometimes I think some of challenges I am having now are the fallout of decisions I made years ago. And then some things are the result of things that I had no control over what so ever. Things seem so unfair. I work my butt off every day to keep my family afloat. But I never seem to be able to get ahead. If we get close to getting ahead something always happens to knock us back again. Then I look around at people I know and see that a lot of them don't do the things they are supposed to be doing. They are taking the easy road. They do what they want when they want. And yet for some reason they seem to be doing just fine. So why is it that when people do the things they are supposed to be doing and work hard are the ones that seem to have the worst things happen to them? Is it because they chose to do the right thing at the time? Or is it because life isn't fair and only those who cheat will ever get ahead?