I would like to share my feelings and perspective with everything that has gone on the last couple weeks. For those of you who don't know about Skyler's tumor check out Leona's Blog for all the details. To keep this somewhat short I won't go into a lot of details that Leona has already covered in her blog. I will just add my perspective to it all.
Nothing can be more nerve wracking than finding out your 6-year-old has a tumor on his kidney. Then finding out that the kidney will have to be removed with the tumor (and probably the adrenal gland too). Then finding out that the tumor is most likely a Wilms tumor and is malignant so he will need chemotherapy. Then setting up the surgery to remove the tumor the next day and doing all the paper work for it. We found all that out in the course of about 10 hours. Skyler went through an ultrasound, 2 CT scans and had a chest x-ray done. Plus they took blood. The poor kid wasn't allowed to eat the whole time. So he was starving and freaking out. Watching your little boy go through that is rough. Then you throw in a wife who automatically assumes the worst and starts freaking out it only adds to everything. Needless to say, that was a rough day for my family. Now if you would have seen me by the end of it you would not have been able to really tell that I was there for all of it. Some might have thought that none of it had really sunk into it yet. Others would say I was in denial. And some would even think that I didn't care that my son was just diagnosed with a tumor that was probably malignant. But that wasn't the case at all. I fully understood everything that was going on. I also knew what Skyler was going to be going through. But if you know me well you will know that I roll with whatever comes my way. I take whatever life throws at me and I just keep going. Yes, I do have emotions and yes I was having a lot of different feelings racing through me from all that had happened.
I have handled this all rather well I think. I am optimistic about all the goings on. I had complete trust in the doctors and surgeons and knew they would take care of my boy. So I had nothing to worry about. The one thing through all of this that caught me off guard was all the love and support we got. I figured we would get support from family and a few close friends and that was about it. Boy was I wrong. We got support from just about everywhere. It was amazing. We even had 500 bikers from Leona's uncles bike gang praying for Skyler. Talk about crazy. The love and support we were given was almost overwhelming. I know I don't show a lot of emotions but the overwhelming love and support actually brought tears to my eyes.
Now I can't go without mentioning the Lords hand in all of this. I know that it was Him that took care of Skyler and made sure he was ok. I knew that he wouldn't let Skyler get any worse than he was. I was never worried that he would take a turn for the worse or anything. I think knowing that the Lord wouldn't let anything really bad happen to Skyler is probably made it so easy for me to remain calm. It is amazing what the power of the Spirit can do to comfort you in times of trials.
Now that the surgeries are all done we can try to get back to our normal life. Skyler is on the mend. He has been super strong through this whole thing. There were times when Skyler was comforting his mom at the hospital when she was starting to lose it. He would tell her he was ok. He is such a great kid. He is healing faster than expected and I hope he will be back to his normal routines in a few weeks. But we are taking it one day at a time.
I would like to thank everyone for their love and support the last few weeks. We have definitely felt it. I am grateful for all that everyone has given and is still giving. It has made a huge difference in my life.
Ok. So I was reading over this and I decided that I didn't really say much about it all from my perspective. But this is a long post already so I will save that for another day. I am hoping that soon I will have more time to write it all down. But for now this will have to do.
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